SPA

Before I start, Yes I realize how silly and unreasonable all of this is.  Just another testament of how blessed I have been that I am this upset over something so small.

I am so upset, even now, 24 hours later.  I don't know why I feel such a sense of loss.  Okay to start at the beginning...

I received a message on Saturday about a special parent meeting for the Company Team Mom's at Saratoga Performing Arts for Monday. That was yesterday.  I went in wondering what this super exciting news could be.  Maybe they were switching up the teams...Would Alison move up?  They mentioned something about how she was doing really well with the bigger girls.  I guess, maybe?  Maybe they were raising the rates???  Ughh, not sure I can handle that.  I wonder if this is to show us the costumes?  All of these questions and more are what ran through my head for the next 48 hours.  Finally Monday evening came.  I dropped Alison off and then stood in the entry of the studio as Janette finished with the first set of parents to get the news.  I began chatting with one of the other Emerald Mom's and was discussing how much I love the studio and how I love that it is so close to our house.  At the same time, Jaycee's Mom and I were trying to convince another Mom to let put their daughter on the team.  Just then, a lot of other parents start coming into the foyer from the back.  They all have little pamphlets in their hands.  It must be that they want the parents input on costumes??? That is exciting, right?  Anyway, we were called back in a room and Janette broke the news....the studio is closing and merging with another studio.  I know this really is the best option for everyone involved. I think Janette is making the only decision she can for the studio.  If she doesn't do this I don't think the studio would be around 2 years from now.  So, I should be happy right.  I actually feel devastated.  I know it is silly, but it was so unexpected.  The new studio is 4 times as far (which still isn't too bad, but since SPA was so close...).  I can't help having this feeling of loss.  We started at this studio when it opened.  I just can't believe that Alison will no longer be wearing blue and white...that she wont be screaming Saratoga Performing Arts at the competitions...that when they call the Emeralds name as the winners, it wont be with SPA, but with The Performing Place...BOOOOO!  I feel like I put my heart into this studio.  I made sure Alison was always there.  I always paid my fees on time and never complained, even when I was given just 2 days notice that they needed $100 for costumes.  I made sure my money was in because I was going to do what I could to keep this studio afloat.  I encouraged all of my friends to go to this studio, because I LOVED IT!  This was our studio!  This is where Alison was supposed to stay.  She was supposed to be an Onyx when she was in highschool.  She was supposed to be just around the corner.  I even took this into consideration when we talked about moving....maybe moving isn't a good idea because it would be so much further of a drive to dance.  Anyway, maybe I am just being way overdramatic.  I really hope The Performers Place (I can't even type that without turning my nose up in the air) ends up being a good place for Alison.  I hope that I look back at this post two months from now and laugh...or that as Alison is reading this to her little girl, she will look back and realize what a great change this is.  Change is supposed to be good, right???  Goodbye, SPA!  Thank you for an amazing 2 years!  We will miss you!!!